Sunday 13 November 2016

Fabric


There is a piece of fabric wrapped around you.

Ever since the first clot of air that you inhaled, the fabric wound itself, attached itself to what you now call your body.
A parasite to your soul's home. 

You can cut this fabric, slowly, systematically, it will take patience and time, you'll make it out of it, fresh and alive, but you'll lose some skin, bits of you would spill out along with your blood because it took too long to cut the fabric out and it had already made itself a part of you. 
But you'll make it out of it, fresh and alive. 

You can tear through this fabric, with the urgency to breathe again because its presence suffocates you, its existence proclaims you as its own but you don't want it. 
So you tear through the fabric, with shivering fingers, mustering all your strength. 
There is some pain yes it feels like a needle, pricking your skin again and again and again.

You can slip out of the fabric, like a snake shedding its skin, slowly, gracefully and effortlessly. But it will soon return, the same as it was, like it never left. 

Take your pick. 

Tuesday 8 November 2016

Gardening

Extract me
Dig at my skin
Reach my skeleton
Pry me out
Right from the roots

Put me down
Somewhere else
In an alien place
Push me in
Superficially

Like a plant
Pulled out from its garden
And put in a plastic bag with wet mud

Restrict my sunlight
Stop my growth
Don'tletmebreathe
Let me choke 

Poke at the soil around me
Cut me off
Slowly. 




Thursday 3 November 2016

Suffocate.

A person sits outside my window
I see his shadow in the night
He drums his fingers against the glass
He waves me a good night 
I wave back

His cold presence doesn't bother me anymore,
Like it did to the child before

He drags his drumming nails across the glass
Making a screech sickening to the stomach

His long thin fingers press against my neck
Choking me 
Remind myself to breathe in
Almost pulling my soul from its anchor
Breathe out
Making my vision blurry
Breathe in
Gasping for air
Breathe out
Arms cemented to my sides
Breathe in
A soundless scream
Breathe out 

And then it's over. 
Breathe in

A person sits outside my window
Its daylight by now
I see his silhouette
He drums his fingers against the glass
He waves a good day
I scoff

Heaving over the basin
Puking out black ink
The only remnants of the nightmare
Reminded that this liquid was made by my own treacherous body
Helping my treacherous mind in my misery.